So, it's been a while since I've posted.  We've been away skiing.  The best holiday for years.  We all loved it.  Boys too.  The only moaning came from Charlie who wanted to do black runs - it was his first week of skiing!

So, am I missing Facebook?  Well, not really.  I have popped back as I miss the sell/buy pages, the home pages and the people who sell crafts that I buy for presents.  But, I feel that I am a nobody.  I have been overlooked for various events as people don't think to ask me because I'm not on Facebook.  It gives me a certain amount of paranoia as I really do feel left out.  I was asked in passing to go to an exercise class but when I said yes, no further details were given.

Is it down to me to ask for more or am I excluded because I'm not on Facebook?  I actually feel as though people are not talking to me because I'm not on Facebook.  One particular friend does seem to be avoiding me.  Should I be pushing to be friends or was this not a real friendship?

On the plus side my time with the children is better. We are doing (well the children are) more sports, more social activities and I am able to see former neighbours who I seemed to have little time to see before (this is because Max is at a drama class and I have time to see them).

We loved our former neighbours but when we moved house, our time seeing them dwindled.  It was down to having children, but they are Max's godparents and it was me not arranging meeting them with the children.  I am so happy to have them back in our lives.

From a different point of view, perhaps not having Facebook in my life lets me revert to true friendships.  Friends who have been there for me and my family through many difficulties and who are always there no matter what.  Certain people always assume the worst when it comes to my children, but real friends are supportive and look for positive aspects.  It has taken this and the lack of Facebook to make me really think about it.  I think I have been harder on my children as they have not been as perfect as the lives portrayed on Facebook and for that I will be eternally guilty.  I love my children and they make me very proud. I just need to tell them more often how much I love them.

I am in the process of upcycling an old TV Cabinet into a kitchen for Evie. It's been ongoing almost since she was born.  I am almost finished.  With Facebook, I'd still be doing it when she was 20 and it would be for grandchildren!  Pictures to follow.